"We need to leave."
“We’re not going with you.”
“Listen, there’s something out there for us, we can’t just give up and stay! We have to work together on this!”
“Moses, Moses…listen…you’re just stepping into our world down here, I know things look bad to you, but this is how it’s been. For hundreds of years now, this is how things are. It’s not great, but we know how things work.
You go waltzing into Pharaoh's throne room trying to lead some revolt and all you’ll do is make things worse. Don’t fool yourself into thinking we’ve forgotten about that stunt you pulled 40 years ago. Go back to the desert you’ve been hiding in, no one here will follow you.”
“God TOLD me I needed to lead you out of here, you guys CAN’T just stay!”
“Oh GOD spoke to you? Guys, did you hear that? It’s not Moses who wants us to leave, it’s GOD…and He told you this how? From a plant?”
And then Laughter.
Humiliation. Heartache. Fear.
Moses started awake. Another nightmare.
It HAD been forty years, and in the morning…he would finally face his people.
Murderer. Coward. Prince.
What must they think of me?
Just days before, He had questioned the Almighty with this very problem:
“What if they won’t believe me or listen to me? What if they say, “The LORD never appeared to you?...I’m not very good with words. I never have been and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me….”
“Who makes a person’s mouth, Moses?” came the answer.
“Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go! I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say.”
Moses would have preferred a script.
Go? Go and just…EXPECT you to tell me what to say once I get there? HOW EXACTLY DO I PREPARE FOR THIS??
“I will be with you.”
Five small words, and for Moses, all the world hinged upon them. For if they failed…He was alone. Alone and a madman.
Maybe He was a madman anyway, but He’d been challenged to invite a nation into a calling to something more, and that meant deciding to leave the known for the unknown. For Him and for them. This would not be comfortable.
Uprooting. Upheaval. No script. No map. Homeless. Reckless.
…and yes. He’d heard the game plan from a plant.
But He was right. And what a tragedy it would have been to miss out on the adventure that followed where the sea moved out of the way for his footsteps and food for thousands fell from the sky.
He just had to decide that “I will be with you” was enough.
And so do I.
From Beka's Journal:
That's what this step has been for me: leaving behind my carefully-laid plans and the identity I had wrapped up within them; choosing that the most precious thing to me is not what I do, but who I follow; deciding to be content with the fact that I don't know how the details fit together.
In a recent conversation with one of the directors of NTM Aviation, I asked him how we could BEST be preparing for when we arrived overseas. He challenged us with this:
You and I don't know what it will be like when you get there. Or if there is even where you'll go. We will only wrap ourselves up in a lot of worry straining to foresee it. It's enough to trust the Lord to prepare us for that and just live before Him right where you are.
So may I grow toward this:
that I learn to know Him, and then rest easy because He can be trusted;
that I learn to fear Him, and then refuse to fear anything else.
That the Lord would use us here and now; and that He would prepare our hearts to listen to Him when we tremble.
We made it through our first semester DEBT-FREE!!!! This is a huge answer to prayer, and a big request for us moving forward. We've used up the majority of our school savings this semester, and we are looking to see how He will provide for the next one. Our prayer is to graduate debt-free and ready to head overseas.